I'm glad I have the bestest set of friends in the world. Friends who I consider family. Who for me shows the real value of a family better than my real family. I've been battling my way to get noticed by my parents and pleased them through the achievements I've earned. It is just so hard to have one perfect older brother who you I can never compete with. YES I CAN. And I've done it a lot of times. In the real world, I would have won. But in this place they call home, defeat has been my nature.

I was part of a varsity team for 6 years. I was doing good GREAT. I earned lots of appreciations from it. From people in my school at least. I used to perform a lot in front of crowd. I sang, I danced, I role played. People gave me good feedbacks. And I know those praises were for real. And the only time, the first time my parents saw me sang in front of the crowd, I received the "It was okay" response.

I never really wished to took up Electronics and Communications Engineering. I really wanted to choose a profession if the field of Business and Economics. But since my brother pursued that career, I opted not to anymore. Because every time, every single time I do things that my brother had previously done, I always ranked second. Not because he always does thing better, but for reasons I clearly do not know, his mistakes can never be considered as mistakes.

For over a week, I have been browsing thorugh the net looking for the cheapest possible way to get a DNA analysis. After 18 years, I suddenly felt this self crisis of questioning my legitimacy to this family. In short, I have this feeling that I'm adopted. But unfortunately, a DNA test would cost 12000-15000. I can't afford that! Yet.

Shout outs to my friends. To my high school barkada. Paolo, Mikey, Mara, Steph, Jesha and Angela: our paths may have parted ways but I believe one day it will all meet again. Angela, I'am really excited to see you. Please come home as early as possible. I hope you will already be in the Philippines before Mikey leaves. And promise me the two of you will see each other occasionally when you're both already in Canada. Paolo, Mikey, Mara and Steph, thanks you guys for being with me in my 18th birthday.

And to my college circle. Jane, Angel, Rb, Janna, Danish, Lance, Pau and July. Wohoo! HAHA. We have three more years to share. I never would have enjoyed college without you crazy people! See you guys soon.